Ok so those of you who clicked on this post just because of the title might be a tad disappointed. Everyone tends to think since adoption is a goal and that’s the only place we could get good news. In our reality right now good news comes in the form of anything pivoting me ahead to better health (which in turn makes us pivot ahead with readiness for the adoption).
I mentioned in Monday’s post that I was heading out after to meet a potential new family dr. I cannot say how nervous I was to meet him/her. I was worried that I might be jumping from the frying pan into the fire, that perhaps my family dr. of nearly 33 years was maybe not so bad after all, or, as silly as this sounds, that I wouldn’t be able to understand them (I couldn’t pronounce their last name).
I went in for a 10:10am appointment and was glad I took my current addiction with me (Spell Tower) because I didn’t meet him until 10:50am. Needless to say I had a moment or two of wondering what this new person was like if by 10 am they were behind by nearly an hour. Fortunately it occurred to me during that time that some of the people I support have a dr. that has long wait times because he takes the time with each patient and does a good job. That is what I hoped was happening during my wait.
And that my Spell Tower score was getting better.
Once I got in and the dr. asked about my current health and I said ‘it was great until 11 months ago’ and began the story, he stopped me and said ‘I have five minutes with you then I need to see another patient. Then I will come back and talk to you some more’.
I spoke fast and he was very interested. He held to his word and left for about 5 minutes to attend to a patient then returned and we continued.
We continued for another 40 minutes. He asked about each specific issue I’m guessing the way a doctor is supposed. The way I’d heard friends say their doctor did when they went to see him/her. I felt like I was dreaming.
I mean this doctor was in a practice with 3 others and they had 3 receptionists and at least 1 or 2 nurses. This doctor didn’t have Sesame Street wallpaper from the 1980′s on the wall, AND he even, get this, had a computer in the room!!! Oh AND he used it!
Forgive me if I sound crazy but I was only used to seeing this in appointments with those I supported. I guess I just thought of it as a city thing (you know, the modernization of computers probably hasn’t hit the outer city limits).
More over he just seemed so incredibly thorough and respectful of how I was trying to take care of myself with the Naturopathic medicine. By the end he said ‘So, if you could pick one thing to deal with right now, aside from the neurological issues that are being looked at, what would it be?’
Surprisingly I didn’t faint.
Probably because I was sitting down.
I felt like someone had opened a box of awesome prizes and I was being asked to pick any one I wanted. I could hardly believe it. Was this really happening?
I pondered for a moment and chose my stomach issues to investigate further, since they randomly pop up and though are considerably better with the food issues being dealt with there is still some stuff I would love to know for sure or at least be documented medically.
He took out a pad of paper and scribbled (you’d think with that many years in school they’d teach penmanship right?) something down and handed it to me.
I was free to go.
As I went home I think I went into a a euphoric state of shock. Was I dreaming? Was this really happening? Was I finally getting a new doctor that would actually be working with me for the improvement of my health? Even a few days later I’m wondering if it’s true.
So many people have been saying that they’ve been praying for me and I know so many people are hoping that in a few days when I find out my second MRI results that the answer is no MS. But right now, as I sit here, all I can think is that their prayers have been answered already, perhaps not in a way they expected but in a way that will surely change the course of my health from here on out. To me, this in every way is just as much a miracle than being spared of any disease because I feel like I have been spared of the disease of bad doctoring, something just as deadly.
I truly feel like a part of me has been healed and the hope I feel in spite of still waiting is overwhelming and life changing even.
I am so incredibly thankful.
If you are one of the ones praying or sending good thoughts, I thank you for lending me your heart and pleading on my behalf.
You were part of a miracle.
Curious about my prize?
Colonoscopy here I come!
P.S. I’m fairly confident there has never been someone so excited to have one done 
Should I throw a party?
